Sort this out on your own time....

awesome no uses these anymore

2008-05-20T01:32:52Z

Well this is good, no one uses these anymore so I can vent and no one will ever know. Man I can't believe i m either that depressed/bored right now that I went look for this. It's been a long time since I wrote down anything in here huh? Wow dating Jess last time i did.....that was a good time. It sucks what happened though, never thought a relationship could end as badly as that. You know though somehow I knew once my dad admitted he has been cheating that I was gonna lose whatever was good in my life. I never got happy again, not for a long time. I mean lets see jess and I broke up in october of sophomore year, man that was over a year ago now and I didnt date anyone...I guess that makes sense I don't really date often I mean we did last 6 months....sorta.....You know its weird so many times I've gotteninto relationships or thought I was past something that happened a long time ago, and when everything goes south I think about her. Why I mean she hasn't really ever tried to be my friend, we or i thought we loved each other, i mean maybe we did/do and thats why we can't ever have a normal friendship, we are extremely disfunctional. Weird some of my crazy friends think that means we were meant to be together......I mean why does she come to me to talk about stuff and me her? I mean I guess i've always been there for her, she never really has been there for me when I needed it. Thats why I stopped talking to her right? It was funny i felt bad when she said it was my fault we didnt talk, how did she do that? So now why when i m crazy about someone else and I messed up and scared myself did i just write all that about her.........chrissy wants to say i m in love with **** still, i know i m not? right? of course she moved on years ago, right? she never wanted friendship it was always an act......but i always regress here. ugh i m still writing about her......what the heck is going on? My life has gotten scary, i felt feelings towards some people the past few months and i knew i wanted one of them from the begining and i screw the pooch cause i was so scared that i did stuff that wasn;t me. i mean what could make this right? time is possible, but will it help...i mean she used to wonder when i would call or text next or what i was doing, and i used to think how much i wished i was able to just see her smile even from a far.......and when i liked her and i thought she didnt i was ok, now when i do and i know she doesnt but that maybe she did it hurts so bad....i mean i have to be to blame there is no one else but me? right? i want to talk to her about how i m scared i feel like she is the only one who can relate completely but she doesnt want to talk to me at all, she is freaked out... cause i was drunk and did the dumbest of things, worst then what i did that got me here. I mean i did the right thing and decided what i wanted....its what she wanted me to do. she made me happy, truly happy for the first time in over 2 years, i mean she just makes me laugh when i see her, who else can put me in my place and not make me upset about it. she is so warm to hold.....and i screwed up, i mean royal screwed up....this isnt something i can apologize for, the only thing i can do is nothing at all, but i mean if i do nothing will she just take that as me being weird and then later not talk to me because she thinks i dont want to talk to her. damn girls are always confusing, i miss her and i m close to her that cant happen its not allowed to happen because i mean we are so close. .......................................................................................i wish she would call and say she is scared and we could talk

Pure Joy

2006-03-26T01:35:47Z

Yea my live journal subject just about explains how I have felt for the last 8 days. You see for the last month I have been talking to Jess A. it turns out we both had crushes on one another and well thought that when I come home we would have to see what happens. Well I came home just alot earlier then she expected, 47 days earlier to be exact. As most of you know I saw the musical last saturday and well before going to the musical jess decided to tell me she was at applebees so I decided to tell her what her surprise that she thought was a letter was. So I turned around and so she could see I was right in front of her the whole time. Well just think what you would do if the boy you liked came home and surprised you liked that, and well I am sure it is nothing compared to how she reacted. She probably gave me the single greatest hug anyone could ever get. She is seriously the most amazing person I have ever met, she wrote me a letter for when I left to go back to school for the last month. Well it left me absolutely speechless. Yes, me speechless, and I have done it to her twice she says. I honestly believe I feel in love with her and it hasnt been long at all. If anyone finds someone as amazing as she is HOLD ONTO THEM FOR AS LONG AS YOU CAN!!!!!!!!!!

P.S. Jess I love you baby 3/18/06

Here's to the Night

2005-06-27T23:45:19Z

It is official, I am now an official graduate of Hauppauge High School. Wow it's kinda creepy, as I truely think about it next year wont be the same. This summer will be the summer of lasts, the last time i see some of my friends the last time i see my parents before leaving for school, the last time i tell people how much they have impacted my life. It is just eeerie, I guess the feeling for me didnt really hit until I walked through the doors of the auditorium and saw all those people standing up and looking at me. It was the last time we will ever see each other all at the same time and place. good luck everyone, and keep in touch

movies

2005-04-01T00:56:26Z

01. Night at the Roxbury
02. Shrek
03. M
04. Dogma
05. Strictly Ballroom
06. The Princess Bride
07. Love, Actually
08. The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring
09. The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers
10. The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King
11. Reservoir Dogs
12. Desperado
13. Swordfish
14. Kill Bill, Vol. 1
15. Donnie Darko
16. Spirited Away
17. Better Than Sex
18. Sleepy Hollow
19. Pirates of the Caribbean
20. The Eye
21. Requiem for a Dream
22. Dawn of the Dead
23. The Pillow Book
24. The Italian Job
25. Goonies
26. Baseketball
27. The Spice Girls Movie
28. Army of Darkness
29. The Color Purple
30. The Saftey of Objects
31. Can't Hardly Wait
32. Mystic Pizza
33. Finding Nemo
34. Monsters Inc.
35. Circle of Friends
36. Mary Poppins
37. The Bourne Identity
38. Forrest Gump
39. A Clockwork Orange
40. Kindergarten Cop
41. On The Line
42. My Big Fat Greek Wedding
43. Final Destination
44. Sorority Boys
45. Urban Legend
46. Cheaper by the Dozen
47. The Crow
48. The Princess and the Warrior
49. Seabiscuit
50. Hard Core Logo
51. Phantom of the Paradise
52. Zardoz
53. Lost in Translation
54. American Beauty
55. Big Fish
56. Starship Troopers
57. Starship Troopers 2
58. The Lost Boys
59. All About Eve
60. Showgirls
61. Swept Away
62. Star Wars: A New Hope
63. Black Hawk Down
64. Elizabeth
65. The Shawshank Redemption
66. Four Weddings and a Funeral
67. The Sound of Music
68. Notting Hill
69. Scotland, PA
70. Oxygen
71. Ringu
72. Shrunken Heads
73. Legends
74. About a Boy
75. Lilo and Stitch
76. Who Framed Roger Rabbit?
77. Pitch Black
78. Maid in Manhattan
79. Willow
80. Secret Of Nymh
81. Throughly Modern Millie
82. The Cutting Edge
83. Anna and the King
84. The American President
85. Save The Last Dance
86. Grease
87. Dirty Dancing
88. Mad Love
89. Lantana
90. Kiss the Sky
91. Braveheart
92. Dark City
93. SLC Punk
94. Memento
95. In America
96. Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory
97. The Wedding Planner
98. Empire Records
99. Edward Scissorhands
100. Almost Famous
101. Mighty Morphin Power Rangers: The Movie
102. Star Trek Generations
103. Beyond The Mat
104. Transformers: The Movie
105. Scary Movie
106. X-Men
107. Ghost
108. Changing Lanes
109. Hangman's Curse
110. Broken Arrow
111. Mona Lisa Smile
112. Moulin Rouge
113. The Ninth Gate
114. Emma
115. The Name of the Rose
116. Top Gun
117. Heartbreak Ridge
118. U-571
119. Ghost Ship
120. Johnny English
121. Dirty Dancing: Havana Nights
122. The Fifth Element
123. Harry Potter and the Prisoner of Azkaban
124. Holes
125. The Pianist
126. Amelie
127. Road Trip
128. Miracle
129. Center Stage
130. Spider-Man
131. The Exorcist
132. Omen
133. 8 Mile
134. Son in Law
135. Stepmom
136. Dr. Strangelove
137. Full Metal Jacket
138. Lolita
139. Little Shop of Horrors
140. Annie
141. Rocky Horror Picture Show
142. Being John Malkovich
143. Monty Python & the Holy Grail
144. Street Fighter Alpha: The Movie
145. Under the Tuscan Sun
146. The Four Feathers
147. Gosford Park
148. Bubble Boy
149. Without a Paddle
150. Labyrinth
151. Shrek 2
152. Spider-Man 2
153. X-Men 2
154. Ever After
155. Great Expectations
156. Orgazmo
157. Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles
158. The Matrix
159. Underworld
160. Anchorman
161. Leon: The Professional
162. The Cooler
163. Head (1969)
164. Bridget Jones's Diary
165. Albino Aligator
166. Chasing Amy
167. The Usual Suspects
168. The Shape of Things
169. 13 Conversations About One Thing
170. Hero
171. Rules of Attraction
172. I (heart) Huckabees
173. Farenheit 9/11
174. Akira
175. Garden State
176. Ghost in the Shell
177. Kissing Jessica Stein
178. Sailor Moon: Super S
179. Adaptation
180. Punch Drunk Love
181. Mulan
182. Napoleon Dynamite
183. Pleasantville
184. Rat Race
185. Blue Crush
186. In Good Company
187. 13 Going on 30
188. Elf
189. Life Is Beautiful
190. Cruel Intentions
191. Princess Mononoke
192. Mallrats
193. Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
194. Fight Club
195. Phantom of the Opera
196. First Knight
197. Alexander
198. Real Genius
199. Secretary
200. Quills
201. Detroit Rock City
202. Beetlejuice
203. Thirteen
204. Trainspotting
205. The Texas Chainsaw Massacre
206. Weird Science
207. Mean Girls
208. The Bourne Supremecy
209. Dodgeball
210. Meet the Parents
211. Meet the Fockers
212. Troy
213. Saw
214. The Passion of the Christ
215. Ray
216. Collateral
217. Coach Carter
218. Assault on Precinct 13
219. Hitch
220. Finding Neverland
221. National Treasure
222. Million Dollar Baby
223. Cellular
224. The Terminal
225. Mr. 3000
226. Head of State
227. Blue Streak
228. National Security
229. Rush Hour
230. Rush Hour 2
231. Shanghai Noon
232. Shanghai Knights
233. XXX
234. The Fast and the Furious
235. 2 Fast 2 Furious
236. The Last Samurai
237. Van Helsing
238. Ocean’s Eleven
239. Ocean’s Twelve
240. Men in Black
241. Men in Black II
242. I, Robot
243. Harold and Kumar go to White Castle
244. Zoolander
245. Rose Red
246. The Silence of the Lambs
247. Hannibal
248. Red Dragon
249. Prophecy trilogy
250. Interview with the Vampire
251. Queen of the Damned
252. Pi
253. Ichi The Killer
254. Suspiria
255. Spun
256. A Beautiful Mind
257. Nightmare Before Christmas
258. The Butterfly Effect
259. White Noise
260. Alone in the Dark
261. The Aviator
262. American Psycho
263. Die Hard
264. Die Hard 2
265. Die Hard with a Vengeance
266. Batman
267. Batman Returns
268. Batman Forever
269. Batman & Robin
270. Resident Evil
271. Resident Evil: Apocalypse
272. What's Eating Gilbert Grape?
273. Blade
274. Blade II
275. Blade: Trinity
276. The Blues Brothers
277. Blues Brothers 2000
278. Ghostbusters
279. Ghostbusters 2
280. Clue
281. Raiders of the Lost Ark
282. Indiana Jones and the Temple of Doom
283. Indiana Jones and the Last Crusade
284. Street Fighter
285. Super Mario Brothers
286. Gremlins
287. Gremlins 2
288. The Addams Family
289. Addams Family Values
290. Superman
291. Superman II
292. Superman III
293. Superman IV
294. South Park: Bigger, Longer, and Uncut
295. Beavis & Butt-head Do America
296. Ed Wood
297. Donnie Brasco
298. Pulp Fiction
299. Face/Off
300. Con Air
301. Mission: Impossible
302. M:1-2
303. Escape from Alcatraz
304. Speed
305. Speed 2
306. Go
307. The Godfather
308. The Godfather Part II
309. The Godfather Part III
310. Manhunter
311. UHF
312. Mortal Kombat
313. Mortal Kombat: Annihilation
314. Saving Private Ryan
315. The Relic
316. Enemy at the Gates
317. Home Alone
318. Home Alone 2
319. Home Alone 3
321. Happy Gilmore
322. Billy Madison
323. The Waterboy
324. Little Nicky
325. Dirty Work
326. Tommy Boy
327. Black Sheep
328. Death Wish
329. Pecker
330. Cecil B. Demented
331. The Shining
332. Carrie
333. Pet Cemetery
334. Pet Cemetery Two
335. The Terminator
336. Terminator 2
337. Terminator 3
338. Ned Kelly
339. Kate & Leopold
340. Mystic River
341. I Am Sam
342. Joan of Arc
343. 50 First Dates
344. Atilla
345. Timeline
346. Titanic
347. Reign of Fire
348. Legends of the Fall
349. The Mask of Zorro
350. Rudy
351. Signs
352. The Village
353. Gladiator
354. The Bumblebee Flies Anyway.
355. The War
356. Gothika
357. Se7en
358. Hairspray
359. Love Me If You Dare/Jeux d'enfants
360. Maria Full of Grace
361. Vampire Clan
362. Once Upon A Time in Mexico
363. A Soldier’s Girl
464. Ong – Bak: Thai Warrior
465. Rigoletto
466. Stargate
467. A League of Their Own
468. The Boondock Saints
469. Platoon
470. The Lion King
471.PCU
472.Totoro
473.American History X

474. Harry Potter : The Soccerors Stone

475. Harry Potter : The Chamber of Secrets

476. Secret Window

477. Beddazled

478. AVP

479. Mulan 2

480. Are We There Yet?

481. Lemony Snikets:A Series Of Unfortunate Events

482. Lion King 2

483. Lion King ½

484. Romeo Must Die

485. Romeo and Juliet (modern version)

486. The One

487. Confessions of a teenage Drama Queen

488. Aladdin

489. The Little Mermaid

450. Alice in Wonderland

451. Bambi

452. Grind

o live journal o live journal what has happened to thine livejournal

2005-04-01T00:39:05Z

So, its been a long long time since I have even looked at a livejournal, until someone mentioned me in there's coughursulacoughcough. Well here is a little bit of an update, Ive made a myspace, and i'm on it alot, and its really kinda boring. But also I have a girlfriend, her name is joanna, and she is amazing, but she is extremely to good for me dispite what she might think. until later

valentines day sucks

2005-02-13T20:34:46Z

I found this on amanda's profile and it very much applies to ************, but I can't say there name on this for obvious reasons, so i ll just post it and say nothing else....

there's something about the look in your eyes, something i noticed when the light was just right, it reminded me twice that i was alive and it reminded me that you're so worth the fight...

Happy New Year

2005-01-03T04:08:11Z

Happy New Year everyone we are only 6 months from graduation. So I enjoyed my New Years, i hung out with silly putty and this kid Tim. Silly Putty hahahahah o boy i wish i had a tape recorder cause i dont think you know at all what you were saying......seriously. On another note I got a new cell phone because my other one the screened died and I would have to deal with the insurance company again and it wasnt worth it so i bought a new phone, but the numbers wouldnt transfer, so if you have my cell phone number you have to call me so i can reprogram yours into my phone. Also my phone has voice activated dialing and a speaker phone so I can not use my hands. Long week at work, 40 hours plus 8 today in which the entire frozen food department was destroyed. O and Jen, i bet we had your salad dressing but you are just to dumb to have found it.

I GOT ACCEPTED

2004-12-08T00:03:07Z

I GOT ACCEPTED TO EMBRY RIDDLE LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!!! OMG I M SO EXCITED!!!!!

For those of you who do not know, Embry Ridlle Aeronautical University is the best aviation college in the nation and is seconded highest in pilot producing annually next to the US NAVY.

There is no doubt that i will go anywhere else but there.

For all of you who haven't recieved word dont worry, you will be too and real soon

I think i am about to scream

2004-12-04T02:02:08Z

So it has been a long time since my last update and I guess well I should update. So I have been a senior for almost four months now. Wow thats scary four months, which means I only have 6 left. Sure you are all like "o six months is a long time," but really it isnt, not after spending nearly 13 years together. I mean I try not think about it but nights like tonight when I am home doing nothing it hits me, I am going to miss some people. People like, Lana, Nicole, Jessica, Allison, Mac, Cookie, the drama kids, the smithtowners (eventhough I haven't seen some of them in forever). The thing that really is bothering me is that I am about to scream if I dont hear about Embry Riddle, I am so incredibly nervous about whether or not I am accepted or rejected. I have my like heart and soul set on this university. Tonight my dad was like you are going where I can afford and I was like "No I am going to Embry Riddle if I get accepted no matter what it takes." The relaxing thing is I should know by the end of next week whether or not I got accepted. Now I need to find money for college, that it is really gonna be hard.

O my birthday is in 41 days and Christmas is in 22 days.

The Cuse

2004-11-08T05:39:34Z

So this weekend I went upstate to see my bro in syracuse. Steve and I left on friday got there at about 10 went to this awesome bbq place called the dinosaur, then went back to my bro and his finance's apartment and went to sleep. Saturday woke up at about 9 bro's buddies came over at about 10 with bagels and beer, drank for about an hour or 2, went to the Carrier dome, watched Cuse win over pitt in double o.t. Went back to his apartment went chilled out for about an hour or so deciding what we were gonna do. Went to dinner at the italian place, then Steve jeff and i went bowling from 10-1 30 in the morning. Jeff and I played 2 games of banana ball bowling, which is where u throw a really light ball and put a ton of spin onto it because u are only holding onto it with 2 fingers. Then today watched the jets lose to bills, poor, and drove home, got home around 10 and here i am now, updating my journal cause everyone went to sleep early tonight.Spoke to my bro matt who is in cali, and he might be coming home for thanksgiving and something else whcih i cant say, which would be awesome cause he almost never comes home for more then two days for christmas.

Sending out my embry riddle application on monday, so i hopefully will know whether or not i m accepted before christmas, cause they respond within 3 weeks of receipt. I really want to get in, causse if i do i ll be so happy, and if i get accepted my dad and I will be paying a visit to the school which means, bort we will probably be visiting.

NEED SLEEP

2004-10-19T08:22:36Z

so arent you suppose to sleep at night? not during the day. Yesterday was "Hofstra day" it was quite amusing clancy bitch the alto saxes, because they suck, and he threatened to kick off kickline and funny enough he was serious about it. O but guess what came in? If you guessed that paper I m always talking about you are right. I m gonna register the car This wednesday after school before going to Hofstra, so I m gonna take it back to the school so almost all of you can see it. Peace

Whose your daddy

2004-10-17T14:02:00Z

So psyched that the Yankees are winning 3 games to none.

Last night went to the movies with Nikki, saw Team America: World Police. Absolutely fucking histerical. It has been so long since I ve laughed that hard and it felt really good. So yesterday was a really good day and night. Tommorrow is gonna be awesome at school because I dont have to go to any class but musical theatre, cause It is our "Hofstra day." Then I should be able to drive my car legally by Monday also, so Tommorrow can be an awesome day.

The boredom is over whelming

2004-10-16T17:02:22Z

So, it is almost 1 pm and I am done with work for the day. Yea I started at 7 and finished at 12. Now I am at home still carless, because either A. my mommy is hiding the paper or B. It still hasnt come in. Really think it is A, because my mom has always been agaisnt the idea of me having a car. The show opens in two weeks from yesterday, o and Hofstra is in 4 days. Havent slept in a while...Wonder why that is.

Welcome to paradise (? maybe? )

2004-10-06T01:15:54Z

ok, guys so you all know i m not the one to write about my personal life in these things but yea, i think i need to for once. I m a few weeks into senior year and i just dont feel right. I feel like I shouldn't be here, that i'm not suppose to be alive. you know like frequency, i feel like i was suppose to die but somehow i escaped death's plan for me. Normally I m good at solving puzzle and riddles like the Rubik's cube but this one has me beat. Everyday i sit their in class and at home and this group of words pops through my head "tri-cycle, pain, life." Now the thing is this, since i started senior year i havent felt pain, like even physically, i ve been made upset but I haven't been like harmed. But I also find myself feeling different. Sometimes I feel like I have gotten confidence about things, that I should be confident about. I feel like everyday when I fall asleep I'm not gonna wake up the next morning. most of you are probably saying "evan stop you are freaking me out" but I can't stop, no matter how much i try to ignore it, i still hear it.

I need help guys,

WHOOOOOHOOOOOO

2004-09-25T15:38:20Z

I GOT A CAR!!!!!!

This morning I bought my car, a 1998 Chevy Cavalier. I m so psyched!!!!! It has 64000 miles on it, the thing is no power windows or locks, but thats ok, cause it has a sunroof and cd player so that makes up for it. Today I actually might like enjoy work. All I have left to do for it is get the registration, so I need to wait for the guy to pay of the lean, once he does that, I ll be driving it to school, so I figure another week of the bus, cause of the time it will take.

Wooooohooooooo

"...and I'm bruised and broken from this head on collision.."

2004-09-21T01:42:52Z

ugh, this sucks so the car went to my mechanic and it has "a laundry list of problems." So I cant buy it, because it isnt worth it. I would have to pay about 1000 to repair then pay 2400 for the car which means i m paying 3400, which puts me over budgeted. No car=bad sucky

P.O.N.T.I.A.C.

2004-09-19T16:10:49Z

Ok, so it is sunday, which means that tommorrow my soon to be new car goes to my mechanic. Which means if it all checks out I will purchase the car on Tuesday and go to the DMV. So on Wednesday I will be driving it to school. What car? A 1996 Pontiac Grand Am SE Coupe (2 doors). The car is Black and looks like it is brand new, it has 99,000 miles, power windows, tilt wheel, AM/FM radio, tape deck, and i m sure I forgot a few things. The cool thing is the guy clean the car, and changed the oil and basically got the whole car ready for me. It turns out he does this as a hobby, and you can tell he knows what he is doing and is a man of his word. I m gonna pay 2400 for the car and it is worth 30-3400. I can't wait to have it parked in my driveway instead of his. My dad saw it the other day and was pretty impressed, without the look, but he doesnt know anything about cars so some of it meant nothing to him. Now most people will say my car looks like a stick but it isn't. It just looks that way, it is wierd to explain. Well I have to go to work soon so I have to stop writing for now.

school

2004-09-17T19:11:15Z

So school is back in full swing and yea. I m not much into caring, well more then usual. Like I care more about my college application to Embry-Riddle then I do my A.P. Calculus class. Is that bad? I have a real easy schedule for school:

1.Band-Clancy
2.A.P.Calc-Scac
3F.Gym/Free
3S.Eco- Stryet
4.Intro to comp.- Talarini
5F.Myth and Magic-Steinmetz
5S.Humanties 12
6.Advance acting Ensemble-Pincus
7F.Everyday Law-Sheigan
7S.Free
8-9.Musical Theatre-Goldenbaum/Pincus/Cavauto

Most of classes are very very boring except acting, ap calc, band, and musical theatre. Yes, that's right I said a class is fun. I found one of my two monologues for acting. I spend all of calc making fun of scac, and Musical Theatre always makes me laugh, cause we are all nuts.

Auditions for the drama were last week callbacks were tuesday, o and during school wednesday, o and more on monday, cause pincus isn't sure of who she wants in wat roles. O and I m gonna have a car soon as by the time you get to this point you've read the entry about it.

Days gone bye (ian's band)

2004-09-07T23:46:23Z

His band name just fits for the title. The end of the summer is here, I cant believe it, next summer will be totally different, we wont be high schoolers we will be college kids, getting ready to go to the place that will change our lives more then we thought high school has. Sure we go through high school with out differences but from years of watching, you noticed that the seniors always are different. They somehow decided to put their petty differences aside and not be such assholes as they have been in the past to kids who arent like them. I think tht is a load of shit, in fact it isnt that kids decided to overcome and no longer have differences with kids not like them its that, they decided to ignore them because they figure they will never see these kids again so maybe we should leave each other on a good note.

So I'm sitting in my house my last night of being a high school student during the summer. This year has some other significance for me, its the end of an era. My parents had 6 kids, yes six. I had the unlucky and lucky pleasure of being the youngest. You know being the youngest lets you get beat up the most by ur brothers and/or sister but it lets you learn from their mistakes. To learn from them what no one can teach you. Now for anyone who has older brothers or sisters you have heard the tales and the legends and the legacy my last name really has. There is no teacher in that school that cant pronounce my name that has been there for at least 5 years. Some teachers know the stories themselves, like mr.clancy. But this year it all ends. My last name will no longer roam the schools of Hauppauge. This year is the end of my families era, my parents will attend their last high school graduation for one of their children, and my parents are gonna be left with "an empty nest." Well sorta, cause one of us always seems to come back after college.

For all the seniors who are reading this, if you never listen to a word i say listen to this. Do everything you possibly can this year, anything you have always wanted to do anything you have ever wanted to say, say it and do it. Because if you dont, you will regret it. We might say we wont miss home when we leave, but we always do a little bit, even those who dont/wont admit it. You miss the kids who were with you at ur first sleepover, when those were cool, your first crush, first relationship, first heartbreak, your best friend in the world who knows all your deepest secrets, your first day of middle school, your first day of high school, and what soon will be our last day of high school. I know we have from September to June of school and it always seems like forever, but we only have 180 days left together, so times running out, our days gone bye.

6 days and counting

2004-09-03T00:10:15Z

So today is September 2nd, and school starts September 8th. Does anyone else think that that's wrong? Well I do, so the other night i went out with a friend for the first time since I saw spiderman 2 with the Smithtown kids, when it first opened. Pathetic, yea i know. I've been working at Shoprite 5 days a week, and I m probably gonna be at SCPA this weekend for Beattle Mania, all depends, on how tommorrow goes. SCPA Labor Day Bash this weekend, that should be cool, but I think Harry 2 is gonna have me work, being that I never asked for the day off, nor do I want it off cause i get paid 10.50 an hour instead of my shitty 7. The good thing about shoprite is that I made $1,400 in about 3 months. It is wierd I ve been there already for 3 months and I m working on month number 4. I think I am gonna work there only until May, then Caddy all summer like Rob did and make a couple of grand, I figure if I manage my money, right and dont buy anything dumb, I will be able to make it through the year on my shoprite salary. I might start working the weekends so that I can make even more money. Hopefully Clayton and Barry pull some strings and have me permanetly moved to dairy this way I get more money, and I have some fun. Plus with me back there we have kicked some major ass.

Another note, I miss megan. I can't wait tell she comes home for a weekend. I feel bad cause I never really got to say goodbye, but I m glad in a way I didnt cause that might have just been to much. It sounds wierd but despite all the fights and arguments and stupid things between us in the last 3 years. I know I would never be able to keep going without having her involved with my laugh somehow. So meg this little paragraph is for you. I MISS YOU AND DONT STOP CALLING!

Write more later kiddies

school

2004-08-30T04:13:41Z

so freshman orientation is tommorrow. This ought to be interesting, lol. Band camp was just horrible to look at, i think it was such a dissappointment compared to last year. right more later

Band camp

2004-08-23T12:19:47Z

So it is like 8 am, and i m sitting here because my mom woke me up from my nice sleep to tell me my brother was leaving for Syracuse, so here i am awake until I have to go to the school for the first time since last june. Megan left for Cortland friday, kinda sad, gonna miss her, but i will see her in a few weeks and I m gonna try and visit her. Still waiting for my dad to open his eyes and realize the problem with the car(s). I havent hung out with anyone in a while, mostly because no one has called me to, but whatever. My parents had a party yesterday so I had to cook on the grill for the whole day because we wanted the food to be eatable so that ruled out my dad and the party was for my mom to social, so that ruled out her. My mouth is fine from getting my wisdom teeth pulled last friday, which makes me happy. Well Ferris Bueller's Day Off is on so I m gonna go watch that.

Survey

2004-08-21T03:44:28Z

*The \\*
last cigarette:	never
last alcoholic drink:	drews
last car ride:	coming home from outback
last kiss:	*******
Last Good Cry:	when my greatgrandma died
Last Library Book:	library?
Last book bought:	October Fury
Last Book Read:	The Glass Menagerie
Last Movie Seen in Theatres:	Spiderman 2
Last Movie Rented:	Southpark movie
Last Cuss Word Uttered:	Fuck
Last Beverage Drank:	sprite
Last Food Consumed:	steak/mashed potatoes
Last Crush:	ugh, lets not go there
Last Phone Call:	chrissy
Last TV Show Watched:	simpsons
Last Time Showered:	about 10 minutes ago
Last Shoes Worn:	new balance
Last CD Played:	so long astoria-Ataris
Last Item Bought:	Mcdonalds
Last Download:	to far to remember
Last Annoyance:	hahahahah, chrissy
Last Disappointment:	my paycheck
Last Soda Drank:	Sprite
Last Thing Written:	Sprite
Last Key Used:	e
Last Words Spoken:	Can I have my check now
Last Sleep:	last night
Last Ice Cream Eaten:	vanilla
Last Chair Sat In:	the one in front of my computer
Last Webpage Visited:	livejournal
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summers almost gone

2004-08-09T01:22:44Z

wow, i cant believe it, i m almost have to go back to school. This summer has been good, and i ve made alot of money which was my goal, but at times i wish i was with my friends, also with someone in paticular. O i met a girl who i work with, whose name i not gonna say. she is really sweet. O my fair lady is over, kinda was sad but i m kinda glad. It was alot of work and time but it was fun, and i enjoyed it. I might be assistant stage managing The Wizard of Oz, that would be cool. but time for me to go

Quizee

2004-06-26T16:57:39Z

1. Name: Evan
2. Nicknames: Guardrailboy, Savantee, Evie
3. Eyes: blue
4. Height: 6'
5. Hair color: dirty blonde
6. Siblings: Lara, Matt, Jeff, Steve, Rob
7. Do you like to sing in the shower? ehh
8. Do you like to sing in the toilet? nope
9. Birthday: 01/14/87
10. Star Sign: capricorn
11. Sex: male
12. Righty or lefty: righty
13. What do you look for in a relationship? i look for happiness with the person, a feeling of safeness and security
14. Have you ever had sex? nope
15. Marital status: single
16. Do you have a car? yes, i share with my dad cause he renaged on the deal but i drive it 85 % of the time
17. Do you have any self confedence? ummmmm

FAVORITE QUESTIONS:
18. Movie: Thirteen days
19. Song(s): without you, first date
20. Band/singer: blink 182
21. TV Show: boy meets world, simpsons, family guy
22. Food: i dunno
26. Drink: sprite, sierra mist, 7 up
27. Disney Character: goofy
29. Color: orange
30. Saying: dont have one

LOVE LIFE ETC:
31. Do you want to get married? yup
32: How many kids? 2
33. Do you have a b/f or g/f (who): no
34. Do you have a crush: kinda
35. Does anyone like you? no, does anyone ever

EITHER-OR (PICK WHICH ONE YOU PREFER)
36. Music/TV: music
37. Guys/Girl : girl
38. Green/Blue: blue
39. Pink/Purple: neither
40. Summer/Winter: summmer
41. Night/Day: night
42. Hanging Out/Chillin: chillin
43. Dopey/Funny: funny
44. What school do you go to? hauppauge
45. Have you ever taken drugs? nope
46. What's a major turn on for you? personality
47. How far would you go on a first date? kiss

48. The person you know who is...
Nicest:
Easiest to talk to:
Funniest:
Most Caring:
Best Personality:

52. Which 5 people do you trust and are open with:
53. Who do you think are your soul mates? 54. What was the last thing you cried over or got teary about? ummm rather not say
55. Are you happy? no
56. Love or lust: love
57. Silver or gold: gold
58. Diamond or pearl: diamond
59. Sunset or sunrise: sunrise
60. Have you ever gone skinny-dipping: nope
61. Do you sleep with stuffed animals: nope
62. Do you have any piercing: no
63. What color undies are you wearing right now: ummm i dont know what color my boxers are id have to look and i m lazy
64. What song are you listening to right now? none
65. Who do you want to spend the rest of your life with? someone who loves me and that i love
66. whats the first thing you notice about a person? personality no question
67. What makes you happy? i ll let u know when i am happy
68. What's the best advice given to you?
69. Have you ever won any special awards? not really
70. Do you like Funny or Scary movies better? funny
71. On the phone or in person? in person
72. Hugs or kisses? both
73. If you died tomorrow who would you leave everything to? no one, b/c no one would notice id be gone
74. What is your greatest fear? lonelyness
75. Would you rather be rich or famous? both
76. What time is it in Albania now? who cares
77. Have you ever been in love? yes
78. Have you met santa? no
79. If E.T. knocked on your door holding up a peace sign asking
to use your phone what would you do? slam it in his face because i m pissed
80. Last time you talked to the person that you like?
81. Do you have any pets? yea this dumb cat, i m giving her away if anyone is interested
82. Last time you were depressed? still am
83. Are you an alcoholic? no
84. Who sent this to you: i stole it from leanne
85. In the morning I am: tired
86. Worst question to ask:
87. Have you ever cried becasue of what someone said to you/about you? no
88. Have you ever done something that you regret? yes to many things
89. The number of times that i have had my heart broken? twice
90. The number of tiems that yu have kissed someone of the same sex? never
91. Are you organized? no
92. Are you shy? sometimes
93. Current clothes: shorts and an orange shirt
94. Do you brush your teeth twice a day? yup
95. Current taste: mcdonalds
96. Do you smoke cigerettes? def not
97. Are you immature?ehhh
98. What is your current worry?
99. Are you insecure? kinda
100.Is anyone going to read this? no because no one loves/ cares.